Confidently Being You

Have you ever taken a moment to reflect on your life?  Have you tried to figure out how you got to where you are now and what’s next?  Do you find yourself wondering if you will ever find the clarity or life you truly desire?  Well read on…

 

A few years ago I felt completely defeated, lost, demotivated and was angry with life.  I would always be looking for the next project or distraction to keep me going.  Wether that was embarking on the Three Peak’s Challenge, doing a master’s degree while working or keeping busy helping a friend through a difficult time.  I became an expert in finding something to keep me distracted from problems in the other areas of my life. 

In 2016, I embarked on a journey of self-discovery.  Ok, let’s be honest… perhaps I was somewhat dragged into it courtesy of the universe orchestrating a series events and the maturation of well planted seeds in the run up to this journey.  Looking back, I now sometimes wonder why the hell this didn’t come into my life sooner!  Life could have been so much easier!

I would be absolutely delighted if sharing my experience save just one person from years of self-torment and suffering!  To put things into perspective, let me tell you a little about my background.  Ever since I was a young child, I have always been taught and ‘trained’ to give education the highest priority.  It was quite normal for the people in our very large extended family compete for the best school report cards, or university degrees or professions, because these are the criteria for success, right?  

 

Now, this was especially difficult for me.  On one hand, I had a couple members in my extended family saying I wasn’t clever enough and should quit going to school because I’m just wasting time and money.  On the other hand, I had some brilliantly loving and supportive family members who would always do their best to encourage me, look for tutors to help me out and anything else they thought would help. 

Finally, when I was about 12 years old I was diagnosed in Kenya (in East Africa) with dyslexia.  Unlike the UK and other developed countries, there was no real support systems set up in Kenya for this and to make things worse I didn’t actually understand what this meant.  My 12 year old brain immediately interpreted this as “dyslexia = dumb forever”, a ‘dumb’ life sentence?!  That’s crazy!  I now know this is not true at all! 

 

 This pattern of criticism seem to follow me around in my life.  I would get the jobs where my superiors would be critical of my work, I would always go above and beyond but never get the recognition.  Having worked in under resourced sectors such as the NHS, the big bosses would always finding faults and send you off for training rather than acknowledging the workload demands are impossible to meet.  I was my own worst critic!  Always thinking I was the one who was doing something wrong, I wasn’t good enough which further played into my insecurities.  If there were awards going out for the best self-critic, I certainly would have won these without contest!

These experiences robbed me of confidence, self-esteem, self-love, joy and happiness.  All because, I chose to give the critics in my life more power than myself, than the people who were encouraging and supportive.  During my journey of self-discovery I learnt to be more confident, I regained my self-esteem, I learnt how to be happy, joyful and love myself.  

I discovered ThetaHealing®, and this is where my journey to self-discovery began.  It gave me the knowledge, tools and skills to better understand myself and decide what is right for me.  Imagine being able to make the right decisions for you, how cool would that be?  Now imagine, that the critics in your life have no more power over you.  What would it be like if it no longer mattered what they thought?  What could you achieve now?!

 

In just two short years, my life has completely transformed, I have broken free of old patterns and am living my life confidently being myself!  During this journey, I have learnt that when you remember to take care of yourself, nurture yourself and really learn to love yourself as you are, amazing things can happen.  One of the most amazing things that has happened is, that I see the world from a whole new perspective.  I no longer have the need to be self-critical, in fact I learnt to become my own cheerleader which is way more fun!

The critics in my life rarely have an impact on my life.  To be honestly, most of them seem to have drifted out of my life as if by magic.  I have a wonderful job where I can be creative, working with amazing people, transforming the lives of my clients and students.  All the while, having fun, the freedom, flexibility and balance in life that I had always been looking for.  I mean, who would have thought it would be fun to write a blog post at 4am when you can’t sleep?!

 

Now, my mission is to empower as many people as possible to become their true authentic self, live their life, achieve their true potential and change this beautiful planet for the better.  Are you ready to begin your journey to be confidently you and have fun?

 

Let’s start an adventure now!

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